January 28, 2007

• Raining Doubt

  I think there comes a point in everyone's lives where they suddenly
  realize that life is something a little bit more than simple and
  superficial pleasures that prematurely end almost consistently. Almost
  surreptitiously, life hits us square in the face and yells "Wake the
  hell up!". That's a bit how I've been feeling lately.

  When I went to the doctor this past week they diagnosed my with
  bronchitis. Not cool of course, so I had to call in sick a few days, to
  the detriment of certain crucial responsibilities I had to take care of
  at work. But all's not so bad though; I managed to switch out of a
  terrible ILA class into one that's not only more manageable but a
  helluva lot more interesting. We'll see how the semester turns out.
  Other than that I've just been trying to get my strength and health
  back up; it's hard to be sick when there's so much for me to do.

  What's been on my mind lately is (unsurprisingly) my life post-college.
  This Friday the 2nd I have my interview with NBC for the position of an
  NBC Page. I'm intimidated and a bit unconfident that this will work out
  but I'm going to go through with it anyway. Other than that, I'm pretty
  much blind in terms of seeing where else I can find job opportunities.
  The ones I find aren't entry level and require at least 3 years of
  experience in the field. Disconcerting indeed. The jury's still out on whether or not this situation will be resolved quickly.

  I've also been thinking about how best to manage my time. Balancing
  classes and my job in the past was fine since those were my main
  concerns, but now I have SNL and job hunting responsibilities and oh
  yeah, graduation. Plus I want to maintain my friendships on a
  respectable level. It's all a bit too much. I never realized how lonely
  it can be trying to achieve everything I need to do. I understand that
  we all have our goals to attain, but I only wish that we could all be a
  bit more mindful of each other, because some of us do not have as much
  support as others to get through it all.

  Oh well. That's it for now. I've been listening to more jazz lately
  (mostly Miles and Coltrane) and it's been giving some peace of mind. I
  wish it would help me not to think (worry) so much.

  Adieu.

                     
                     
                     
                     
                    SEE YOU SPACE COWBOY...
                               

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